Today I’m going to share about my favourite G-word.. Gratitude. It is easy for me to overlook the practicality of practicing gratitude in my day-to-day life. Unfortunately I haven’t reached a place of enlightenment where I am grateful for the everything all the time. Not yet anyway.
I have been grinding in the Sydney Hip Hop Underground for a few years now and I have met all sorts of dope artists.. and many bitter ones too.
It’s a huge fear of mine and I have shared it in these blogs before: I don’t want to become a bitter human being. So, I think a good starting place is practicing gratitude.
It’s easy to forget just how far I’ve come and what I have achieved. Musically and personally. Recently I posted on my Primitive fb page about the amount of content I have released in 18 months. For those that missed it:
I’ve released 8 singles, a collab, 2 EP’s and 6 film clips.
The grind is real and I guess I’m writing this not to big note myself but more to like a positive affirmation to keep going.
I just know that when I am using gratitude for foundation, it allows me to allow good things into my world.
Comparison is the thief of joy
Ok, so to break it down it goes something like this:
When I compare my internal reality with someone else’s external perception, there’s not a lot of space for gratitude. What I mean by that is if I am comparing how I feel or what I have with a perception of someone – usually a random I see – I end up feeling like shit because I always fall short somehow.
It seems pretty brutal, and it is, but it seems to be all too human.
So it seems I have to find my peace from within and focus on what I am doing to make my life better and what I do have an am grateful for.
Seems pretty sensible but it’s something that doesn’t come easy to me. I’m a perfectionist, a hustler and a damn good rapper.. but sometimes I need to just chill and show myself some love ya know. The same love I so freely give others.
I feel I’m getting a little deep but it is just my truth. Don’t get me wrong, I live a blessed life. I have taken many risks and ventured into the unknown and the Universe has taken care of me. I have beautiful love in my life, support and many things to be grateful for.
There’s a real dichotomy for me in being an outgoing performer and remaining humble and grateful. When my ego takes over, that’s when I feel entitled and generally that’s when the comparisons come in.
So what does gratitude have to do with being a dope rapper? Maybe nothing. I think it just makes me a better human being.
This blog turned out to be something completely different than what I thought it would lol. The intention was just to share my gratitude to all the awesome people supporting the journey and showing love to ya boi.
I am grateful to each and every one of you that has shown kindness, generosity and support.
Leave me a comment if you can relate or anything has stood out to you.
New album coming soon fam! Looking like a May release.
As always, thanks for rocking with ya boi Prim!